I have begun to realize that transitions are hard when going from 1 kid to 2 kids. I have also realized that I have been trying to be a super mom and failing miserably.
Since my daughter was born, I have had help with stuff around the house on a daily basis. Either my hubby, my mom, my dad, my mother in law or others. I have just realized that I have become dependant on them. While it has been nice to focus on the baby, it has been overwhelming to think about how I'm going to take care of a second kid without help and help around the house. There is a piece of me that fears having a mental break down which tends to push me further down that path.
I struggle with depression, anxiety and high levels of stress that seem to never go away. I wish for a day that I can say oh it was relaxing and I am refreshed. I don't foresee this happening anytime soon.
God gives me strength but the devil knows my weaknesses. I need to cling to God more right now for strength. Please pray for me as I walk a new road starting Monday as I will have less help with Corey and taking care of stuff for Bolivia.
This weekend will be a very busy with Bolivia presentations, dedication of our daughter, and birthday gathering for my son. Prayers for peace are needed.
God is good.
Running Momma
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