Another Day Alive

Yep I'm at it again.  Trying hard to stay focused and on task.  I guess telling someone about it really helps me.  What helps more is when people ask me about it.  I can't lie to a face, it is easier to stay hidden behind a computer though.

I have had a bit of depression lately.  Not sure what from.  Post-partum that has lingered, the whole upheavel of my life, no consistency, the change in who I am and how I define who I am.  I'm just lost and I need a way out.

So here it is again, I've exercised today and drank half the amount of water I needed.  I haven't don't anything else today.

But I did have a great visit with a wonderful friend who inspired and helped me see that outside of me and my world, there are other women just like me who are struggling to find their place.

Thank you Lord for breaking into my self centered universe :)

My Brain is Dead

My brain is dead and I don't know what to do... or so it feels like.  Since I had Cara, I have felt very fuzzy, disorganized and chaotic.  Well I guess that is kinda my life right now.  Since before Cara was born we were crazily packing our house up, and preparing to move to a foreign country.  So it is no wonder I feel crazy and disorganized not to mention Chaotic.  Since coming back from Bolivia things have not changed.  We have been on the road since returning in May.  

I have decided to take my life back... it may not last long but I am going to try.  

Here are my goals for these 2 months that Chris is gone to MN and Africa.

1. Exercise 6 days a week 

2. Walk every day with the kids

3. Drink my gallon of water

4. Complete my ASL online class

5. Continue to work on Spanish via Rosetta Stone and 10 words a day

6. Read 5-10 books a day to my kids

7. Start "School" with corey (ie teach him about trees etc) mostly nature stuff

8. Take me time every day for 1 hour (yes that means quite time for the kids) YES!

9. Learn to cook health food (thanks Karen for all the inspriation)

So Yes it looks like a lot but really my focus is to try to stay focused on my kids and my health.  The learning stuff will wake up my brain.  

So for Day 1: I've exercise, walked, and I'm now having my quiet time.  guess tomorrow I'll get to the rest. haha

night